happy birthday babe,we should all be having a party getting pissed and cellibrating your 40th not visiting your grave;im going to take the kids out for something to eat,may go the u,n.i; dont no thou il be to upset i think to go there,amie came with me today but philip didnt want to come and i no what your thinking and i no your here with me i can smell you just wish i could touch you,in my dreams i do hold you tight and your always there i miss you so much i love you,i some times wonder if your by the lake or just beside me all the time,like we said well always be togher,are names are carved on that tree and you carved them for that reason i love you babe im just totally devastated, every minute of every day i think of you xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx