one year today you left us all here,we still feel the pain just worse,the kids miss you so much and im totally heart broken carnt beleive your not here with us, it was your 40th birthday two days ago instead of a party we visited your grave its so unfair we want you back why why why didnt you go the hospital that ill never understand i just carnt beleive your not here with me any more its just all crazy i miss you more than ever carnt do this my head is fukin wrecked xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx