today its xmas and its are first xmas apart i feel so lonely and so sad.....,the kids opened their presents and they miss you so much....i will put on a brave face for people to see.. but what they wont see is that my heart is broke and ill cry in silent were no one can see the pain i feel wont ever go away togther we shall always be soul mates for eternity il always love you xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx