i smiled i laughed i played the part,... i hid the secret;.... the pain,... the tears,... the pain in my heart,...but i sat and rembered the twenty years we shared and i was happy for all the memories we shared,most of them brill and some not good but ill only ever rember the good...im dying inside and i dont know what to do,...i just look at the kids and think i have to go on for them,... if i didnt have them id be with you now and that i know for sure,....love you forever my best mate my life my soul mate xxx ...